January 25th, 2026

Jan. 25th, 2026 04:16 pm
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 1- State of the Phnee
 
It’s been a rather sleep-deprived weekend, entirely of my own doing. I was up late on Friday night for the usual writer’s meeting for Project Nimrod/the Soopar Seekrit Prodjikt I’ve been collaborating on since last September (ish), and then I couldn’t get to sleep right away so I only got about three hours of sleep before I had to get up for work. Then yesterday was the first session of the new D&D Eberron campaign, and once again I was up until about 1am and had to get up at 4am to go to work. *cries in very tired*
 
It was worth it, though. D&D is amazing, and it’s nice to have a creative outlet for writing again, even if I’m only doing it sporadically.
 
I have been procrastinating on my Quakerly duties this week. I have to draft the State of Society Report and come up with a draft of the queries for the Claremont Dialogue on hybrid Meetings. I am feeling decidedly uninspired, and I need to learn to write even when I’m not feeling it, because responsibilities and deadlines don’t wait for inspiration.
 
I’ve also booked train tickets to visit my parents this coming week, which will hopefully go well. My parents and I typically get along really well (ever since I stopped living at home), but after a few days we usually all end up remembering why we don’t live under the same roof anymore. It should be fine, and I do genuinely enjoy spending (limited) amounts of time with them. We will probably have more conversations about the future, because they’re both getting older and dealing with more limitations. In an ideal world I’d build them a fully accessible bungalow on my property, but I don’t have the money for that and they are understandably incredibly reticent to get a loan against their condo in order to finance that sort of endeavour. So in the meantime I am encouraging them to figure out how to maintain their independence as time marches inexorably forward, because I live just a tiny bit too far away to be of real use on a daily basis.
 
2- State of the smallholding
 
The polar vortex is in full swing. It’s been -26 Celsius for the past two days, and my poor GSVCO (which long time readers will remember is the name of my 15-year-old Yaris) is struggling a bit in the cold but has been rallying valiantly the whole time. I have been in touch with Steve the Wonder Mechanic because she needs a bit of TLC, but he hasn’t yet got back to me about when he’ll be able to see her. This work was supposed to happen right before Christmas, but he had a scheduling conflict, so things have been pushed back quite a bit since then.
 
We’re going through a worrying amount of propane to heat the house. When I first signed up in October the nice lady I spoke to said that based on the previous owners’ usage, I could expect to pay about $1,500 a year for heating. However, we’re at the end of January and we’ve already had three deliveries totaling $1,100, so I am starting to doubt those numbers. We’re not even cranking the heat—I’ve been keeping the thermostat at 17 Celsius which, while not cold per se, is still on the cooler side of things. We’ve been averaging one delivery per month, at about $400 a pop, and given that I got accustomed to paying about $100 heating with natural gas, is a bit of a shock to the system, especially since summers are expensive now due to the horrifying cost of air conditioning. I’m not a huge fan of A/C, but it’s non-negotiable for KK, so A/C it is. *sigh*
 
Part of me is wondering if it’s an insulation problem (at least in part). I’ve basically run out of money at this point, but I’m going to add “fix the basement insulation” to “build a wheelchair ramp” on the list of things I need to do to make the place more accessible and hopefully less expensive in the long run. Somewhere in the next few years I’m going to need to do something about the septic system too, but that is considerably more expensive than the smaller projects (anywhere from $10,000 to $50,000 depending on the work, which I very much do not have).
 
*lies on the floor*
 
Why is home ownership so freaking expensive? Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy to have the place, but I thought I was getting a pretty “turnkey” house, and it turns out that there is still a shit ton of expensive work to be done. Woe.
 
3- State of the news
 
*grimaces*
 
So, uh, this all seems… horrible, to quote Bruce Banner.
 
Minneapolis is up in arms, and rightly so. ICE has murdered another protestor (and yes, I’m using that word on purpose). Alex Pretti was an ICU nurse out there protesting and filming/observing ICE’s atrocities. He tried to help a fellow protestor who’d been hit with (I think) pepper spray, and when he did that ICE agents swarmed him and executed him on the spot. They’re now trying to spin it, saying he had a weapon (he did by some accounts have a gun for which he had a permit, which he had NOT drawn), calling him a terrorist, accusing him of trying to assassinate ICE agents and whatever other lies they can come up with in the moment. There’s a strong counter-narrative emerging, singing Pretti’s praises and documenting all the good things he’s done in his life, but honestly even if he spent most of his spare time kicking puppies and taking candy from babies, he still would not have deserved to be executed in the street simply for exercising his right to protest.
 
In less horrifying but still depressing news, Trump is once again threatening tariffs against Canada because we had the temerity to sign a trade deal with China (which Trump was all on board with last week, as I recall, but whatever, we are not expecting coherence out of him). He’s got his panties in a twist about Carney’s speech at Davos, very clearly, and has now started spouting off about “Governor Carney” and the “51st State” the way he did in November of 2024, and you’d be safe it’s getting the same reaction as it did the first time he tried this shit.
 
Speaking of home ownership being expensive, my township has approved a 5.46 percent increase in municipal property taxes, a 2% increase for water and sewage (not applicable to me since I have my own well and septic) and garbage taxes are going from $165 to $180. It’s not unmanageable for me, at least while I’m still employed, but I can imagine it’s going to be a struggle for the lower income people in my area.
 
All right, that’s it for me. Catch you on the flip side, friends!
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 I'm posting this here for my own records, because social media is ephemeral and this feels like something worth recording. 

*Edit* Oh my God, the new editor is a nightmare and I CANNOT make the text cuts work properly. Sorry, friends!

Carney’s Speech )


Commentary 1: Metthew Behrens )
What I heard today was a warmed over rehash of the 1948 basis for the world order for which a rupture has been named: PPS 23, written by American mandarin George Kennan, that laid out the "pragmatic" (a term Carney loves) rationale behind the global system of violence that has murdered tens of millions of people since 1945 in the name of democracy, human rights, and a stable investment climate. "We have about 50% of the world's wealth but only 6.3% of its population... In this connection, we cannot fail to be the object of envy and resentment. Our real task in the coming period is to devise a pattern of relationships which will permit us to maintain this position of disparity without positive detriment to our national security….We should cease to talk about vague and unreal objectives such as human rights, the raising of living standards, and democratization. The day is not far off when we are going to have to deal in straight power concepts. The less we are then hampered by idealistic slogans, the better."" 
 
This world order was fine as long as we white people were not the ones being genocided in Sudan or Gaza or Vietnam or East Timor or Guatemala or Rwanda or Turtle Island, among many others, as along as our Muslim loved ones were not being interned in Chinese or Syrian concentration camps, as long as our loved ones did not have to spend decades on boil water alerts in a land occupied by a genocidal state that kidnapped and tortured and mass-incarcerated our children, and still does.
 
Carney’s pretence that the past 80 years of Canadian-supported, funded and armed state terror (with its big brother the USA in the lead) was somehow an OK norm that has suddenly been ruptured because supply chains for massive corporations are at risk, along with bottom lines. It's the ultimate pulling of the wool over our eyes and throwing out the bleak history in which we have played such a nefarious role.
 
Canada as a "middle power" has done significant damage to the global ecosystem and human rights infrastructure. I will have more to write on this, but if we take a breath, appreciate the fine words, and THEN look at who is saying them and why, I think it will become clear why Bay Street and Wall Street (indeed, the Global elites who cause this massive violence and sustain the gross economic inequality and gave Carney a standing ovation) are applauding. Someone is going to save the most rapacious predatory system the world has ever known (notice how Carney used an example of communism, not capitalism, to talk about the illusions of false promises), and we will retire to our elite villa suites in the Swiss mountains to cogitate on it all. 
 
It's because what Carney is proposing is predatory late-stage capitalism on a slightly different axis. We can continue to mine the earth, invade Indigenous territories, burn through fossil fuels, cook the planet, steal from the poor to give to the corporate warfare profiteers, and maintain a good return on investment for all you who can afford the ticket to Davos and reminisce about Vaclav Havel over sherry.
 
To the folks desperate for a warm space tonight on Canada’s freezing cold streets, there was nothing, absolutely nothing, in today’s speech for hope. To Indigenous people bearing the full frontal force of climate catastrophe, not a word. To those worried about the repressive new Carney legislation at home, that will strip whole classes of refugees of their status, that will ramp up the deportation machine, that will justify invasions of Indigenous territories, absolutely nothing. For folks in Gaza continuing to be blown up with Canadian weapons, or folks stateside fleeing ICE violence enhanced with Canadian-made armoured vehicles and drones, nothing. 
 
Since he came to power, Carney has made Trudeau’s gaslighting look like child’s play. And while the wool is over our eyes, we will continue supporting the most dangerous economic system the world has ever known, one that threatens to drown or burn us to death on the road to a good day at the stock market. 
 
Applause for a good show, King Carney. But that’s all it was. Oh, and in the meantime, about this Canadian troops STILL embedded in Trump’s violence…. While I cannot access the whole story, the reporter, Christy Somos, points out: "Canadians should be asking questions about how deeply our military has been collaborating with American ops of questionable legality. 
 
((From my first email Jan. 12 to now I have requested answers /statement from the DND – “we’re still working on this” will go on my tombstone))
 
PS: What is the alternative, you might be wondering. While I think there is lots of space for that discussion, let’s actually make sure what we are discussing IS an alternative, not a sequel. But the path to an alternative is being realistic in assessing who our greatest opponents are right now. And many of them are quite close here at home.
 


Commentary 2: Steven McSweeny )
Canadian Prime Minister Mark Carney’s speech presents itself as bracing honesty, but it is really an exercise in elite self-soothing: a technocrat narrating the collapse of a world he helped build while insisting that the same tools, values, and class interests can somehow rescue it. He is right about the rupture, the weaponisation of trade, the exhaustion of the “rules-based order,” and the end of comforting fictions. What he cannot admit is that these are not deviations from liberal capitalism but its logical outcomes. The speech diagnoses symptoms while fiercely protecting the disease.
 
The most revealing moment is his invocation of Havel. Carney borrows the parable of “living within a lie” to scold states and firms for pretending the old order still functions. Yet in the same breath, he sneers at the slogan “Workers of the world, unite!” as a hollow ritual, missing, or deliberately obscuring, that the slogan failed not because it named a falsehood, but because it named a truth too threatening to be realised. Carney’s real discomfort is not with lies as such, but with lies no longer working. When he urges companies and countries to “take the sign down,” he does not mean dismantling exploitation or hierarchy; he means adjusting the branding of power so that liberal capitalism can survive in a harsher geopolitical climate.
Throughout the speech, capitalism is treated as a neutral terrain on which values compete, rather than as a system that structurally subordinates people, nations, and ecosystems. Carney laments coercive supply chains, financial weaponisation, and extreme global integration, yet proposes more trade deals, more investment corridors, more militarised infrastructure, and more competition, just better coordinated among “middle powers.” This is not a break from the logic that produced Trump or US imperial overreach. It is an attempt to manage that logic more politely, with spreadsheets instead of slogans and multilateral dinners instead of unilateral tweets.
 
The core contradiction is stark. Carney wants sovereignty without breaking from global capital, resilience without challenging accumulation, and peace secured through expanded defence spending and arms production. He calls this “values-based realism,” but it is simply realism for capital, with values stapled on after the fact. Doubling defence budgets, fast-tracking trillion-dollar investments, and deepening extraction of energy and critical minerals are not neutral acts of self-protection; they entrench the very material rivalries he claims to fear. You cannot outgrow militarised competition by feeding it.
 
What makes the speech politically dangerous is its tone. Carney speaks calmly, reasonably, and fluently in the language of responsibility, which is why many people, especially those repulsed by Trump, are celebrating him as a voice of sanity. But this is precisely the problem. Liberalism in crisis often rebrands itself as the sensible alternative to barbarism, while quietly normalising surveillance, militarisation, border fortification, and economic coercion. The content shifts rightward while the rhetoric stays humane. This is how authoritarianism with good manners enters through the front door, applauded for not shouting.
 
Carney insists this is not a return to naive multilateralism, yet everything he proposes is an attempt to reconstruct a pre-Trump world minus its illusions, not its injustices. He wants the same hierarchy with better risk management; the same global capitalism with more insurance; the same dominance of capital over labour, just distributed across a broader club of states. The people who suffer most under this system (workers, migrants, indebted countries, those on the front lines of climate collapse) appear only as abstractions, never as agents. Their role is to be protected, managed, and spoken for, not empowered.
 
By framing the crisis as one of middle powers versus great powers, Carney carefully avoids the more uncomfortable conflict between capital and life itself. The real rupture is not just geopolitical; it is social and ecological. A system that requires endless growth, extraction, and competition cannot be stabilised by better coordination among its managers. The reason the old order is not coming back is not Trump’s personality or China’s assertiveness, but the exhaustion of liberal capitalism’s legitimacy.
 
In that sense, Carney’s speech is less a vision of the future than a plea for continuity: a request that we trust the same class of experts to steer us through the wreckage they helped create. It is not living in truth; it is living in a newly updated lie, one that sounds mature, responsible, and urgent, while foreclosing the more radical honesty the moment actually demands.

Commentary 3: Simon Dougherty )
Mark Carney's Davos speech redefines Progressive Conservatism, and not in any good way.
 
On one hand, it is amusing to see him describe the liberal "rules-based international order" as it has been accurately described for decades by the left:
 
A "nice story," but a "false" one, of "accommodation" with, and "subordination" to, the powerful – "living within a lie" in order to benefit from the "brutal reality" of "American hegemony" while concealing the empire's coercive violence and hypocrisy by avoiding any acknowledgment of "the gaps between rhetoric and reality."
 
Carney declares a "rupture" with this old world order, but in thoroughly anti-communist terms so that people will not associate his meaning as conceived by a communist like Alain Badiou. Here ends any progressive pretence of Carney.
 
On the other hand, it is deeply troubling to see that Carney's "solution" to decades of intensifying capitalist crises is to double-down on the same conservative remedies that got us into this mess in the first place:
 
"...cut taxes on incomes, capital gains and business investment"..."[remove] all federal [regulations] to interprovincial trade"..."[fast-track] a trillion dollars of investment in energy, AI, critical minerals, new trade corridors"..."[double] defence spending by 2030"...remain "a core member of the Coalition of the Willing and one of the largest per-capita contributors" to NATO's proxy war in Ukraine...rapidly sign corporate free "trade and security deals."
 
Without irony, Carney believes, as Tony Blair originally did, that all these neo-liberal "solutions" are a "third path" that will transcend "the performance of sovereignty while accepting subordination." But sovereignty for whom?
 
Carney is only talking about the sovereignty of capital and the military-industrial complex in middle powers that are already integrated with the imperial core.
 
He is not talking about the sovereignty of everyday people (especially not that of workers and Indigenous people), nor is he talking about planetary needs over Trump-like profiteers beyond the United States. There is nothing liberating or emancipatory in his speech, despite its core conservatism being bookended by ostensibly progressive and even radical rhetoric.
 
Carney's answer to one false story is to create another that deliberately sidesteps the possibility of peace with justice on a sustainable planet. Ultimately, his vision is the militarization of capitalist enclaves that Trump is attempting to Balkanize and more directly colonize.
 
Don't fall for it.
 


Commentary 4: Zilla Jones )
Several people have asked me for my take on Prime Minister Mark Carney's speech at the World Economic Forum yesterday, so here it is.
 
(Several paragraphs of “this is my Facebook page and I can express my opinions and if you don’t like it you should fuck off!” removed for purposes of clarity and messaging because it’s just not relevant for the purposes of my own blog.)
 
Mark Carney begins with a plea for honesty, and then delivers several minutes of lie upon lie.
 
He launches into a story from the Communist ruled Czech Republic, about a shopkeeper putting up a sign saying "Workers of the World Unite" although he doesn't believe it, just to go along with the crowd and avoid trouble.
 
I'm already annoyed. What's the problem? you might ask. The Communists were bad, and they did suppress freedom of speech. It's a valid example. 
 
The problem: Carney chooses a Communist regime in Europe that was dismantled 35 years or so ago. He chooses a leftist, socialist regime. However, the current threat to the world is from the right. We have had extreme right-wing regimes also denying freedom of speech over the past 35 years. Yet Carney makes his attack on the defunct Communist bloc. He's reminding everyone that he's a capitalist first and foremost. He's not here to truthfully analyze and critique late-stage capitalism. He's here to unite the corporations  and billionaires of the world through a shared hatred of the old Commie bogeyman - the lowest hanging fruit there is.
 
It gets worse.
 
Carney says, "For decades, countries like Canada prospered under what we called the rules-based international order," and then says, "We knew the story of the international rules-based order was partially false."
 
NO IT WASN'T. It was wholly false. In fact, there was no rules-based order.
 
Let me back up here. I have to go back to the birth of modern European colonialism. If you don't like me talking about this, you really need to leave now. But this is where the story starts. And this isn't a comprehensive history of colonialism, just some thoughts.
 
When Europeans first began realizing that there was a world beyond their shores, it was intoxicating. There were all these foreign places just full of free land and untold riches - gold, jewels, wood, furs, spices, rubber, sugar - with just the pesky obstacle of the dark skinned peoples living there. But this too was a blessing because they were heathen souls who could be brought to Christ, and even better, could be used as a workforce to harvest this wealth. By conquering these lands, Europeans could both grow rich beyond their wildest dreams and earn favour with God. 
 
There was a race to claim these lands, with no thought that they were already occupied. But it became a free for all. Wars were fought over this place or that place. Pirates sailed the seas robbing merchant ships. There were attempts to create order. The Pope divided up the yet unconquered lands - one side of the line to Spain, one side to Portugal. Much later, the Berlin Conference divided up Africa amongst European powers. Euroepan nations absorbed the newly acquired territories into their Empires and competed to see whose was the biggest.
This isn't ancient history. These countries didn't begin to gain their independence until India in 1947. For most, it was the 1960s and 70s. Some are still not free. And once they became independent, they were ravaged and broken after centuries of exploitation and violence. They became what was variously known as the Third World, the underdeveloped world, the developing world, and now the global South. 
 
The other thing that happened just before 1947 was the end of World War II, which some believe was a continuous conflict with WWI.  After WWI, the League of Nations was formed. It was founded in response to the horrors of the Great War in an attempt to promote peace and security in the world. Countries that were still colonies were not represented, unless they were Canada and Australia, say, who were majority white settler colonial nations and were granted representation. 
 
After WWII, the League became the United Nations. The United Nations was set up with a Security Council as the primary body for ensuring world peace. It has five permanent members: Russia (formerly the USSR), China, the US, the UK and France, and a rotating cast of other members. The permanent members each UN was being established, colonized nations of the Global South were demanding independence. One of the great fights was in India. Britain was opposed to losing what they called "the jewel in the crown." Here's where I remind you that Winston Churchill (to whom some have compared Carney's speech) said regarding the displacement of Palestinians,
 
"I do not admit ... for instance, that a great wrong has been done to the Red Indians of America or the black people of Australia. I do not admit that a wrong has been done to these people by the fact that a stronger race, a higher-grade race, a more worldly wise race to put it that way, has come in and taken their place."
 
He also was recorded as agreeing with the slogan "Keep Britain White" and as having said regarding white US racists "why be apologetic about Anglo-Saxon superiority, that we were superior, that we had the common heritage which had been worked out over the centuries in England and had been perfected by our constitution".
 
So at the same time that the UN was being set up to promote peace in the world and make the new rules, it excluded much of the world from having a voice and gave the greatest power in that body to their oppressors who had contempt for them.  As the post-colonial era began and they were admitted, the former rulers had little patience for their grievances or concerns. The UN wasn't intended for them so why should they get to claim space in it now?
 
Now - back to Carney's speech.
 
"This fiction" (of a rules-based order) was, he says, "useful, and American hegemony, in particular, helped provide public goods: open sea lanes, a stable financial system, collective security, and support for frameworks for resolving disputes.
 
So, we placed the sign in the window. We participated in the rituals. And largely avoided calling out the gaps between rhetorics and rituals. This bargain no longer works."
Here's where I feel the full weight of the gaslighting and disregard I have felt my entire life. And it comes not from the fascists, not from Trump, but from our smiling, liberal, corporate, banker Prime Minister.
 
Listen to what he is saying. We knew it was BS. But we didn't care, because we benefitted from it. So we didn't care about who was being harmed, and we didn't speak up for them.
In 1983 when the US invaded Grenada illegally? A few words of criticism, nothing substantive.
 
Apartheid in South Africa? We traded with them for decades until finally shamed out of it.
 
Unjustified US boycott in Cuba? Look the other way
 
US interference and violation of international law in Panama, Nicaragua, Chile? No problem
 
US support of death squads in Chile, El Salvador etc? No problem 
 
US starting a brutal war in Iraq based on a lie? Ehhhh. We'll keep cozying up to war criminals like Bush and Cheney. We'll even help them out in Afghanistan. 
 
As long as the sea routes were open and banking was good, nothing to see here, folks. It wasn't us being invaded and terrorized, so.... so what?
 
This is like a man saying "I knew there was sexism but I benefitted from it - free labour at home, no accountability for my sexual crimes, earning more than I deserved, so I went along with it."
 
Or a white man saying "I knew there was racism but I didn't care because I got to take advantage of it."
 
So you might say: well, at least they're acknowledging it. That means they're going to repudiate it and do better, right?
 
WRONG.
 
Complaining about tariffs, etc. Carney says "You cannot live within the lie of mutual benefit through integration when integration becomes the source of your subordination."
 
BECOMES? For much of the world it always was. The global integration he speaks of rests on the sweatshops and child labour of the global South.
 
And the solution? Carney says:
 
"As a result, many countries are drawing the same conclusions. They must develop greater strategic autonomy...... When the rules no longer protect you, you must protect yourself." He goes on to describe a new approach of being "principled in our commitment to fundamental values: sovereignty and territorial integrity, the prohibition of the use of force except when consistent with the UN Charter, respect for human rights."
 
Really? Isn't Canada still sending weapons to Israel?
 
He also calls for us to be "pragmatic in recognizing that progress is often incremental, that interests diverge, that not every partner shares our values."
 
Isn't this in direct contradiction to what he just said about principles? We stand for human rights, but if we want to trade with, say, Qatar, where migrant workers are enslaved and dissidents often vanish off the face of the earth, we recognize that they "don't share our values" and go ahead anyway with no more than a little finger wag at them. That's pragmatic, but it's not principled.
 
"We actively take on the world as it is, not wait for the world as we wish it to be."
 
So enjoy your poverty, your genocide, your second-class status. It's not like anyone can do anything about it. It's not like this isn't a room of billionaires from nations sucking up a disproportionate amount of the world's resources and causing a disproportionate amount of its climate change. 
 
That's it for the global South. That's all you get. But then Carney turns his sights to home. And this is what he has to say about life in the true North strong and free:
 
"Since my government took office, we have cut taxes on incomes, capital gains and business investment, we have removed all federal barriers to interprovincial trade, and we are fast-tracking a trillion dollars of investment in energy, AI, critical minerals, new trade corridors, and beyond. We are doubling our defence spending by 2030 and doing so in ways that builds our domestic industries."
 
Wow. We've CUT taxes. We have a housing crisis and an affordability crisis and we've cut taxes, not on the most vulnerable (who don't pay taxes anyway) but on capital gains and business investment. Instead of making the wealthy pay their fair share, we've given them yet another break. 
 
We're fast-tracking investment in energy. This includes OIL and pipelines. We're going to continue destroying the environment.
 
We're investing in AI? Which also wrecks the environment, not to mention is devastating to arts and culture.
 
We're investing in critical minerals? What's the environmental impact? Do we just not care about climate change anymore?
 
He goes on for a while about the great things he's doing. Gives a nod to standing with Greenland and Denmark - of course, he will never name the threat to them, because that might upset the big, bad bully, and we're pragmatic, you know. All that stuff about honesty at the beginning of the speech? That was a lie too. So when he asks "What would it mean for middle powers to live in truth?" and answers his own question, "It means naming reality," my question is, whose reality?
 
There is nothing in this speech about Indigenous peoples on overcrowded, underserved reserves, some without water. There is nothing about the immigrants and migrant workers our government has blamed for every problem Canada faces. Nothing about the guy on the street who doesn't know where his next meal is coming from, or how he will get out of the cold tonight. There's nothing there, because these people don't matter. They were expendable in the old order and they're invisible in the new one.
 
And I know some will say "That's because it's the World Economic Forum. They're there to talk about the economy, not all that social justice stuff." 
 
My answer? The poor, the unhoused, the vulnerable ARE the economy. You cannot talk about the economy without them, because they are the victims of the late-stage capitalism Carney is describing. If you do what he's advocating, you create and maintain an underclass of people who get left behind - and who are overwhelmingly racialized or otherwise members of vulnerable minorities. Just like the UN left the colonized world behind. You build them out of the system and then blame them when they don't make their way back in. You certainly don't do anything to help them.
 
But there's also nothing about the rest of the populace. Nothing about strengthening Canadian arts and culture in the face of threats from the AI you want to invest in and US aggression. 
Nothing about protecting our democracy from foreign interference. Nothing about building our social cohesion by addressing systemic discrimination in all its forms. 
 
So to sum up, Carney has a few more gems. He tells us to, "Stop invoking the rules-based international order as though it still functions as advertised."
 
It always has functioned as advertised. The one rule is: the US can do what it wants. Always was the rule, is still the rule. You just don't like what it wants any more.
 
Near the end, he tells us "The old order is not coming back. We should not mourn it."
 
I'm not mourning it! I've been talking about how harmful it is for almost my entire life, and have been gaslit and condescended and talked down to and insulted for daring to do so.
 
In summing up, Carney uses a whole bunch of words he's used throughout the speech. Values. Power. Cooperation. Strength, Strong. Honesty. Gain. Build.
 
My final thought: you know what word never appears?
 
Justice. 
 
Any new world order worth having must be founded on justice. Reparations for the destruction of colonialism and capitalism. Racial justice. Class justice. Global justice. Climate justice. A strong and effective and fair justice system domestically. A properly functioning international court that actually deals with war crimes and human rights violations. I have been waiting my whole life to see justice, and it seems I will have to wait longer.
 
A politician who actually has the courage and honesty people are attributing to Carney would call for justice and would take steps to make it happen. None of them have done this. It doesn't matter if the leader is a woman, it doesn't matter if they're Black, it doesn't matter if they're Indigenous. Thatcher, Hillary Clinton, Obama, Harris, Kinew, they love their drones, their bombs, their pipelines, their jails as much as anyone else, which is why there are limits to representation. And it is why it so often feels so isolating, so heartbreaking and pointless to exist in this world where denial of reality is called truth and celebration of exploitation and greed are considered greatness.

January 22nd, 2026

Jan. 22nd, 2026 09:31 pm
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 1- State of the Phnee
 
I’m back in the saddle, more or less. I am having trouble getting myself going in the mornings still, and I have to figure out either how to manage my life without getting up early, or else how to get myself out of bed at a reasonable time. I have not figured out either of those things. It’s partly inertia and partly a feeling of being constantly worn out. I was hoping that solving the mystery tired/sleep apnea thing would also solve the can’t-get-out-of-bed problem, but nope, turns out that wasn’t it.
 
I have to confess that I live with a constant background noise of vague frustration and annoyance that I am apparently immune to all the “life-changing” miracles of modern medicine that everyone swears by. People swear that ADHD medication allowed them to focus and get things done, that using a CPAP made them miraculously no longer tired and cleared up their brain fog lickety-split. It’s all amazing stuff that will change your life! Except I have not experienced any of this. The CPAP does help, in that I have noticed that I feel noticeably worse if I don’t use it, but I don’t feel noticeably better or more energized day to day. I’ve taken almost every ADHD medication under the sun except for straight-up Ritalin and Adderall (because my doctor doesn’t want to prescribe them for… reasons), and I have not seen any improvement in my symptoms the way other people describe. Not even a little bit. So, yeah, I am low-key mad (as the youths were saying fairly recently but maybe aren’t saying anymore) that I am apparently the exception to the fucking rule for everything. On the plus side, I have a pretty high pain tolerance threshold and tend to have fewer side effects from medications even in higher doses, so I guess that’s something? Meh.
 
In other body-related news, I have aaaalmost hit my unofficial “halfway” mark for my weight loss goal. I have been sort of procrastinating on workouts, so I’m going to do one once I finish writing this post. Motivation is really difficult to sustain, mostly because lifting weights is really uncomfortable and I find it kind of unpleasant. Still, if I want to actually become stronger and be able to do things around the house and around the property without injuring myself or just being in pain for days afterward, I need to do the thing.
 
I had a decent day, all that complaining aside. I got up early enough for a day off, and I spent the day very casually puttering around doing dishes and cleaning up the kitchen. It’s not perfect, and our new dishwasher is one of those new water and energy saving ones which means it takes two hours and thirty minutes for a single cycle instead of the 40 minutes that my old dishwasher used to take. I do appreciate the water saving aspect, given how small our septic holding tank is, but good Lord am I not a fan of how long it takes. I also got more glass food storage containers for my lunches because there have been a lot of casualties in the past few months and I was starting to run out (two of mine broke at work and the dogs broke one yesterday, much to my annoyance).
 
2- State of the Smallholding
 
We’re looking at a record cold few days coming up thanks to a polar vortex, so I packed the quail enclosures with as much straw as I could without smothering them in the hopes that they will be properly insulated. They’ve been doing okay since the last one died weeks ago, and I am really hoping that will be the last of the casualties.
 
I did plan to start incubating eggs in mid-February, but I am a little worried that they won’t be viable because so many of them are freezing during the winter. I may try collecting eggs multiple times a day on my days off in the hopes of staving off the freezing, but I’m not too optimistic about my chances. If I weren’t worried about starting a fire in the garage, I’d consider putting in a little space heater, even if it’s just for extremely cold temperatures, but yeah. Fire hazard.
 
3- State of the news
 
I was busy doing dishes and quail chores all day, so I haven’t actually checked the news and am a little afraid to do so now.  I am going to let the news be until tomorrow, I think.
 
Catch you on the flip side, friends!

January 21st, 2026

Jan. 21st, 2026 09:33 pm
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 1-State of the Phnee

Okay, I missed a few days, there. I blame the sleep deprivation, because I just forgot about posting for three days and only remembered a few minutes ago. Oops? I’m going to give myself a bit of grace, there, because the last few days of night shifts were rough AF, as the kids are saying these days.
 
There’s actually not much to report since I last posted, at least. The State of Society worship sharing went well, even though I had some moments of frustration beforehand. The current set of Friends who are “in charge” of things are really bad at communicating with me. It could just be that my very neurodivergent brain is not picking up on all the neurotypical subtext that’s happening, but they act as if I should somehow read their mind and know when they are going to deviate from the standard operating procedure, which I cannot do. My ESP has never been as well developed as other people would like.
 
The same Friend who has been bitching about hybrid meetings suggested, less than half an hour before the worship sharing, that we should postpone it, because there was a clothing swap happening at the same time which had been “on the calendar for a really long time!” I had to forcefully remind myself that the Peace Testimony is an important part of being a Quaker, and that it would be very un-Quakerly indeed of me to reach through the computer screen and strangle her. Luckily another member of M&C who was there in person gave her a very firm “no,” because we have very tight deadlines for the SoS report. When the Friend pushed back, the M&C member gently but firmly told her, “If you would like to come to the worship sharing late, that is a choice you are welcome to make, but we will be starting on time.” Shockingly, she did not come late.
 
I tried to attend the Continuing Meeting of M&C in the afternoon, but the Zoom link didn’t work for me, and since it was right in the time that I needed to be preparing for work, I decided after 15 minutes of trying that I didn’t want to spend any more time on it. I had already been up for 26 hours by then and did not have the wherewithal to fight with emails and Zoom and what have you. I will try again next month.
 
I don’t think I mentioned it before, but KK gave me an Oodie for my birthday, which for those of you who are not immersed in American apparel companies, is basically an oversized hoodie made out of fleece that is extremely cozy. Mine is teal coloured and has lily pads, tadpoles, and frogs in various normal-to-weird poses on it. It is VERY cozy. Knowing that I was exhausted after not sleeping since the previous day’s threshing session on Israel and Palestine and the Apartheid-free communities pledge, I anticipated that I was going to get very cold at work. I am generally a person who runs hot unless I’m very tired or getting sick. So, I decided to bring it to work with me, which was both a genius idea and a terrible idea. It was genius in that I was very, very warm and cozy. It was a terrible idea in that I was so warm and cozy that I kept nodding off at my desk because the shift wasn’t very busy and so I didn’t have anything to work on to keep me awake. My shift partner was very understanding about it, luckily.
 
We had a mandatory Town Hall meeting on Monday, where our execs blue smoke up our asses and then pissed on us and told us it was raining. Okay, I am exaggerating ever so slightly, but it was 45 minutes of them patting themselves on the back for all their cost saving measures, and oh, by the way, we did sort of kind of lie a little bit when we said we wouldn’t be cutting jobs and your managers will be in touch with you over the next few days to tell you if you’ve been affected. Oh, but WE EMPATHIZE WITH YOU and we want to make sure you know WE’RE IN THIS TOGETHER except that, of course, we execs are keeping our jobs, and it just sucks to be you, sorry not sorry. Blech.
 
Yesterday I got to sleep in a bit, then puttered around the house, then had a therapy appointment, and then I went for a walk with my friend Jan and her dog Lightfoot as well as Peggy and Pixie. It was a very nice walk, but poor Peggy was having a “clacky hip day” (she has hip dysplasia) and was struggling a bit by the end. We let them romp around in a field at the end of the walk, and Lightfoot and Pixie had a blast chasing each other through the snow, but Peggy was tired and sore and didn’t want to run, so she got quite cold standing still, and we called it pretty soon so that she could go inside and warm up. Next time I will bring the Brittanies’ winter coats with me to help keep them warm for longer. They’re usually okay in the winter, but I think we pushed Peggy a little too hard.
 
Today was a very quiet day too. I did some shoveling, took the recycling away from the curb because they changed the schedule on me over the holidays and so I’ve been putting the wrong recyclables out and my cardboard boxes were blowing all over the countryside. I spent most of the day hanging out quietly with the dogs, took some time to refill the quail’s food and water, and did some dishes. Nothing to write home about.

KK has bought herself a walker with wheels (purple, naturally) and is looking into acquiring a motorized scooter as well, for getting around outside the house. We’re not sure if our insurance will pay for both or only one, so she’s holding off making a claim until she gets the scooter and will go from there. Hopefully that will improve her pain levels while outside the house, because that’s been an increasing problem for her for the past few months. She got x-rays taken a few weeks ago, and the arthritis has progressed to her hips and her back, which is not good news. I’m hoping she and her doctor can discuss better pain management than what she’s been getting so far (which basically boils down to a lot of NSAIDs and Tylenol Arthritis). I don’t know at all what the future holds there.
 
2-State of the Smallholding
 
Apart from shoveling and quail, there’s nothing major on the home front. Given KK’s deteriorating health and pain levels, I am seriously considering talking to our local handyman about what it would cost to install a ramp in front of the house. Apart from KK my friend Amy is also a wheelchair user, and my mother’s mobility is getting steadily worse as well, so it would make a certain amount of sense to make the house more accessible. That being said, cost is going to be an issue, because I am not made of money, and while there are theoretically grants available for making your dwelling more accessible, I am above the income threshold where that would be available to me. The threshold is very low, meaning I would basically have to be unemployed or making minimum wage to qualify, which is luckily not the case. It’s one of those situations where I don’t have enough money to afford the thing, but I have too much income on paper to qualify for any kind of assistance in affording the thing. Oh well. So, yes, I will be taking to AJ (the aforementioned local handyman) and asking for an estimate and we will go from there.
 
3-State of the news
 
The entire internet is creaming its pants about Mark Carney’s speech at Davos yesterday, and all I can do is roll my eyes at all the people who apparently cannot see beyond the surface level of his words. The speech was a very pretty one, and definitely an understated “fuck you, we’re not playing with you anymore!” to the USA, so naturally Trump has his panties in a twist over it. However, anyone who knows even a little bit about Canada’s history, its current political state, and the current state of the world, would have to side-eye that speech quite a lot. It was a speech that was designed to comfort the comfortable, and all those comfortable people at Davos gave it a standing ovation. There have been a few very well written critiques already, and I may post or link them in future entries for future reference (because the internet is only forever for things you never want to see again).
 
*sigh*
 
I’m hoping to get a good night’s sleep and get a bunch of stuff done tomorrow. I would like to get in a workout, do some tidying around the house, and I need to do a bunch of work on the State of Society Report and finish up my D&D character’s history to send to my DM. So much to do, so little time!
 
Catch you on the flip side, friends!

January 19th 2026

Jan. 19th, 2026 01:12 am
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 1- State of the Phnee
 
I am no longer a Phnee. I am an ex-parrot. I am pining for the fjords. Do people still make Monty Python jokes these days? I don’t know, but I am tired and so I am making Monty Python jokes. Something something Spanish Inquisition!
 
*lies on the floor*
 
Today was incredibly frustrating. I’ve had about 40 minutes of sleep in the past 36 hours, and I don’t get off work for another 7 hours, after which it will take me an hour to get home, meaning I’ll have been awake for roughly 43 hours and change. 
The Quaker Member who called the online attenders “auxiliary” to the Meeting tried to postpone the worship sharing on the State of Society Report today because there was a clothing swap happening at the Meeting house, which had “been on the calendar a really long time!” As if the SoS Report doesn’t have extremely tight deadlines that we need to respect. It’s a good thing I wasn’t in the same room as her, because I might have done something distinctly un-Quakerly to her at this point. I am sleep-deprived and she pushes aaaalllll my buttons.
 
Then another member of M&C told the people at the end of the worship sharing to send any additional thoughts in writing to her personal email, even though I spent a chunk of time last week setting up a dedicated email account for M&C for precisely this sort of thing. The reason? She said the emails MIGHT GET LOST if they were sent to the DEDICATED M&C EMAIL ACCOUNT. I just… I can’t. WE AGREED. We talked about this and EVERYONE AGREED we should have a dedicated email account. But no no, she’s going to received them and then send them to me. I FUCKING CANNOT.
 
*rips out hair*
 
*screams into the void*
 
I will have to have a chat with her when I am less sleep-deprived and crabby. I understand that she has a ton of institutional knowledge and experience, but that doesn’t mean she can unilaterally make decisions like this. I do NOT like the idea of her funneling emails like this, even though I know she has no ill intent. It feels a little bit power grabby/controlling. 
 
We had a little adventure at work last night when one of my coworkers’ cell phone mysteriously went missing. She’d last checked it when she went to the kitchen, but when she went to grab it from the lockboxes (we have to lock put our phones away before we come into the room where we work) it had gone. We’re usually four people on shift, and all of us took turns searching for it—the washrooms, the kitchen, all the common areas. She checked with the commissionnaires (basically a fancy term for building security but specific to federal government buildings), and no one had turned it in. They checked the cameras and saw nothing out of the ordinary, either. This went on for several hours, with the coworker getting increasingly distressed because it was a new phone that she couldn’t easily afford to replace, and the rest of us powerless to do anything about it. Then, closer to the end of our shift, she found it! She had put it into one of the lockboxes but one that she never normally used because the door is janky, so she hadn’t bothered checking in there because why would she? Night shift brain is wild. We were all very relieved for her.
 
 “Phnee is not allowed to sleep” news, I am really not looking forward to the mandatory all-staff meeting tomorrow (technically later today) at 13:30. For those of you following along at home, that means I will be up for 43.5 hours, then get a maximum of 4 hours of sleep before I have to drag myself out of bed to attend this [censored] [censored] [censored] meeting. I DUN WANNA. *whine moan bitch*
 
In happier news, I have been working away on my D&D character background. I’m inventing a cult/high control group in which she grew up, and having waaaaay too much fun making it horrifying in that nice-on-the-surface-terrible-underneath way. I don’t know if I’ll have the brainpower to work on it tonight, but I will be giving it a try. 
I have a lot of “creative writing” to do this week. There’s Hazel’s background (as I mentioned), plus the Soopar Seekrit Prodgikt, and the State of Society Report, because as I said earlier, we have a pretty strict timeline for that. I am very out of practice with writing,  so I will have to hope for a lot of inspiration before next Friday.
 
 
2- State of the smallholding
 
Not much to report on this front. Today was all about the self-inflicted sleep deprivation, so I didn’t get much done other than all of the Quaker things,
 
3- State of the news

I have not had a minute to myself all day to check the news, so I only hope World War III hasn’t been officially declared while I wasn’t paying attention. These days, you can never be too sure.
 
Okay, that’s it for me. Catch you on the flip side, friends!
 
 

January 18th, 2026

Jan. 18th, 2026 01:13 am
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 1-State of the Phnee
 
Holy Hannah, I am TIRED, and it’s going to get worse before it gets better. I woke up on time for the threshing session and managed to stay alert and pay attention for the whole two hours of discussion. It was the usual blend of informative and frustrating, the way all group discussions tend to be for me. I’ve found lately that I don’t have as much patience as I used to for listening to people who don’t listen to instructions or speak only to repeat the same thing four other people have already said or to only talk about themselves when the subject matter is about a much larger issue.
 
This is not a flex, as the youths say these days, it’s a character flaw that I am working to correct in myself. I need to find more compassion and understanding and make space for people who are interacting with the world in a way that I think is incorrect. I recognize that this is an example of rigidity in my thinking, but I’m having trouble with the praxis part of things these days. I don’t have the emotional reserves to hold that much space for people I don’t know well and who are getting under my skin for their perceived flaws. Work in progress, I guess.
 
I got the announcements done for tomorrow’s Quaker Meeting, and since no one from M&C has volunteered to be the Greeter, I will have to forgo most of my sleep tomorrow in order to get up in time for the start of Meeting. If I’m lucky I may manage to get a one hour nap before Meeting, and then I will have to be awake for the rest of the day until I get home around 08:00 Monday morning. I will have to invest in some caffeine, I think, to make sure I get through my shift and also don’t kill myself accidentally while driving home. It’s not ideal.
 
Speaking of work, there is a mandatory all-staff meeting on Monday at 13:30, because of course there is. So that means even less sleep, since that’s the time when I would have been recovering from my night shifts. *sigh* It’s a meeting addressing government cuts and what’s called “Work Force Adjustment,” which is the government’s fancy way of saying “layoffs.” This doesn’t affect me directly, as WFA only applies to indeterminate employees and I am a term employee. They can simply not renew my contract, and it ends there, whereas an indeterminate employee subjected to WFA is subject to different regulations and still has some rights. Still, it will be interesting to see what our execs have to say, since they swore up and down that they would be addressing budget shortfalls without resorting to cutting positions, and I am quite sure that that was horseshit. I am cynically curious as to how they are going to spin this.
 
In unrelated news, I have been putting off three things of varying levels of importance because they all involve having to make phone calls to people I don’t know. The least important is calling a local(ish) hairdresser to address the absolute disaster that my hair has become in the past year (it’s been at least that long since my last cut, and our well water is very hard and does my poor hair no favours). I also need to make a long overdue dentist appointment and am hoping to find someone local(ish) so I don’t have to drive all the way to Ottawa every time I need to get work done. I haven’t been to the dentist in a long time and am quite sure that my teeth are… not in great shape. I had a referral years ago to a periodontist for receding gums, and since I didn’t have $10,000 at the time to spend on treatment (still don’t), I can only imagine things have gotten worse since then.
 
Last but not least I need to make an appointment with my doctor. She and several other doctors left the clinic where I was a patient for over 10 years without so much as a by-your-leave, moved even further west from where I live (so that now it will take me at least an hour and a half to drive there), and are now charging an arm and a leg for a bunch of services they used to offer for free at my previous clinic. I was never offered the option of staying with my previous clinic, which is very frustrating, and now I can either pay out the nose and individually for things like forms and faxed prescriptions or pay a yearly “flat fee” for the privilege of accessing medical services. I fucking hate the slow creep of privatization in our healthcare system, it SUCKS. And of course when they moved their booking system was down for nearly six weeks and I can’t even access it without having to call first. I was supposed to get an appointment six weeks after my surgery, but since there was no way to contact them (no phone, no online system), it’s now been three months with no follow-up to make sure that, for instance, my blood pressure medication doesn’t make me violently ill the same way it did to KK. *sigh*
 
If I had even a little bit more energy (and a lot less anxiety!) I’d consider running for office, because things have absolutely gone to shit in this province and if I’m going to bitch about it I should probably try to do something about it. Of course, I don’t think I’d win. I am a terrible public speaker with the charisma of a boiled potato. However, I feel like the effort needs to be made in some way. Of course, I’d probably have to go and lock down all the fanfiction I wrote all those years ago, which all seems like a lot of work. ;)
 
2-State of the smallholding
 
The water heaters I got for the quail somehow got unplugged, so the poor things had no water when I check them this morning—everything was completely frozen over. I plugged everything back in and added some fresh water to tide them over while I waited for everything to melt again. I have no idea how it got unplugged—the only explanation I can think of is that I must have accidentally pulled on the extension cord when I was changing out the food and water at some point.
 
Sometime tomorrow I also need to make a point of putting out all the paper and cardboard recycling as well. I missed the last collection day, and things have really started to pile up.
 
There isn’t much else going on right now. I’ve been very passively trying to think of how to get help with “farming” things now that KK appears to have more permanently injured herself. She’s looking into getting herself both a walker and a motorized scooter to help her get around outside the house, and whereas in the past she was able to at least walk over to the garage to turn the light for the quail on and off and sometimes even check their water and food levels, she now either can’t or won’t do it. That means that when I’m working evening shifts or weekend night shifts, or in cases when I’m visiting my parents in Montreal, I will need to find someone else to come look after the quail and eventually the other animals I want to get. The original plan was that I was going to be primarily responsible for all the smallholding stuff, but that KK would be my backup on the rare occasions I wasn’t available or if I was ever ill. Obviously that’s no longer the case, so I need to find a new solution for that problem. 
 
3-State of the news
 
There hasn’t been anything really new since my last post, just updates on the current (very) long list of global garbage fires. Greenland, Ukraine, Iran, Palestine… it’s a depressingly long list, really.
 
Our Prime Minister is now in Doha, talking trade with Qatar of all places. After China, I suppose it wasn’t that big of a stretch for him to decide that we can absolutely ignore all those pesky human rights violations and atrocities if it means making the big bucks. *sigh* I was already side eyeing the deal with China a little bit, but Qatar is in a league of its own when it comes to human rights violations. I remember the horror stories that came out during the last FIFA cup, and I am disappointed but not surprised that our PM continues to prove himself a Conservative wrapped in a Liberal trenchcoat.
 
Okay, time to get some other stuff done. I have to figure out a reading for tomorrow’s Quaker Meeting, and then if there’s time I have some personal projects I want to work on. I need to write up the background for my new D&D character, and I’m also working with some other people on a Soopar Seekrit Prodgikt which could possibly turn into a TV show (probably not, but the chances are not zero), so I have some writing to do this week.
 
Catch you on the flip side, friends!
 
 

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