Depressing post for depressed people

[hells_half_acre]

I've got tonsillitus again. I had it last month too - did I mention it here then? I don't know.

Anyway, apparently the way tonsillitus works is on a buy 4 in a year get a free surgery deal. But, this is just the second, and yeah, it's basically only a month after I last had it, but that doesn't necessarily mean I'm caught in some sort of weird pattern... it totally just means that I'll get over it this time and it will never ever come back.

My point, really, is that I'm miserable. Also, life sucks. I'm broke. I just got a new casual part-time job, but I did the math and that's not going to be enough to pay the bills either.

Everything is horrible.

In good news. I'm only three episodes away from finishing the S10 timeline. Yay! So, I'll probably get that done this coming week.

Also, in good news, I saw Mad Max: Fury Road on the weekend (just as my symptoms were starting to manifest, so before I got super miserable)... and it was a great movie! I had to pee really bad through the last quarter, but I still enjoyed it. It was so well done. I've read a lot of articles since about WHY it was well done, from the hero being the embodiment of positive masculinity fighting agains toxic masculinity... to how the filming and editing was all centre-framed to make the action easy to follow.

So, that's good...

Everything is still horrible though. What I really need is for someone to come over and make me lemon honey tea and then fix all my problems while I lay seemingly lifeless on my bed, drifting in and out of consciousness - sometimes, I might offer a witty rejoinder as entertainment, but other times I may just stare listlessly at my companion until my silence becomes uncomfortable.

My mum really wants me to come home for the summer still. And I really want to go. I'm not sure how I'm going to afford it... but, I'll probably go anyway. I need a vacation.

Long term, I'm having my doubts about whether I can stay in Vancouver. I mean, moving back home isn't going to solve anything either - it's just the difference between needing $2500/month to live and needing $1500/month to live....

Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I guess I'll just try to make it through the summer and then see how things are in the fall. Maybe I'll be able to find a full-time job or something equally miraculous will happen.

Comments

[franztastisch]

*MASSIVE HUGS* I'm so sorry about you getting tonsillitus again. :( And that you're having so much trouble finding work. I know how shitty that feels. And if I didn't live continents and oceans away, I would totally come over and make you lemon tea and soup and other ill-person things. :) And then we'd watch shit tv, and you'd fall asleep and I'd read your hard copies of the ddemented verse because OF COURSE. :P

*more hugs* I hope this clears up soon. And hopefully you won't get it again ever. I think that's the more fun option; better than getting it twice more and then a free operation.

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Hmm, yes, that sounds good.

And yeah, I'm really hoping that I don't get it again - firstly, the tonsillitus itself hurts, secondly, if I had to get surgery, that would hurt and leave me unable to eat solid food for days. It'd be horrible.

*hugs*

[supernutjapan.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear you're sick :( and feeling blue to boot. I would come and make you some lemon honey tea if I could. Hope you feel better soon.

When your tonsils feel a bit better, try some banana for some happy hormones. You will figure it out.

*hugs*

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the hugs and sympathy. *hugs*

[mousme.livejournal.com]

How's your French? If it's even a little passable, my office is hiring right now! Then you could easily afford to live, even if it's not in Vancouver. The work isn't boring, but it's not so overwhelming that it would be too stressful, either, and my coworkers are really nice, too.

*hugs* Tonsillitis is not fun. I hope you recover quickly!

:::ETA::: My offer of roommatedom still stands, as long as you're willing to put up with an extreme introvert with weird working hours and cats coming out of the woodwork (you've already met the dog). It'd be way cheaper than living on your own, and would as a bonus involve helping me with costs. I also have wine for the nights you watch SPN and need to do drunken recaps!

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately my French is tres terrible. I can understand it a little, but I can't speak it at all - and I can really only understand simple sentences.

But thanks!

And thanks for the offer of roommatedom. I think if I did move back, I'd have to live with my mum for a bit, even if I got a job, just to recover my finances... but I will, as always, keep you in mind! And yes, wine for drunken recaps is essential. ;)

[mousme.livejournal.com]

I'm not in a hurry, or anything. Offer is on the table, and my rates are reasonable. ;)

If you do come to visit this summer and want a place to crash that's not your mum's, you are welcome in my guest bedroom with uncomplicated free wifi!

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Haha, thanks! I sent my mum a new router a few months ago, but I'm not sure if she's set it up yet. :P

[elvit.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
Send you all .. um, sorry. I'm not sure how to say it - don't have enough practice. Just wish you health and good job and nice summer and problems solved. <3

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[borgmama1of5.livejournal.com]

I wish I lived closer so I could come over and take care of poor sick you! Sending virtual lemon honey tea and hugs and if only SPN knew what a treasure they were missing out on hiring!!!

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

If only a lot of people knew what a treasure hey were missing out on hiring...

And thanks for the virtual lemon honey tea. It's the thought that counts.

[nic]

So sorry to hear this. :( If you need advice on tonisillitus, or fighting-the-system to get them to take your tonsils out, feel free to ask. I went through all of that the last 2 years.

And even though the surgery was rough, life is SO MUCH BETTER without tonsils. I am so much healthier and it's great.

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Oh man, well I'm hoping to make it through the summer before needing surgery, but I may take you up on that if it looks like it's going to be a regular thing and for some reason they don't want to take them out.

Tonsillitus SUCKS!

[phamalama.livejournal.com]

omg please get better soon! Also, yes to another successful Mad Max Fury Road convert! I LIVE, I DIE, I LIVE AGAINNNNNNNNNNN

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Thanks! The antibiotics should be doing their job. Also, painkillers help.

:)

[cappy712.livejournal.com]

Big hugs to you! I know exactly what it's like - took me years to finally have a doctor that decided enough was enough. I was having 5 bouts a year and it was getting to the point that I was having a hard time breathing. I pray that it never gets that bad for you - too bad you can't convince the doctor to look at the previous times to see if you could get them out.

Feel better!

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Well, so far, the doctor seems like if it really looks like this is going to be a recurring thing, he's all for surgery - so I'm thankful for that. This is really only my second bout, and no matter what it seems, you can't point out a pattern with only two data points.

Which is why he says that if I get it too more times (or it continues to recur monthly) then he'll assign me to surgery.

I'm not really worried about the doctor not agreeing to surgery - I'm more concerned about the timing of it all. If I DO get it again, it will be right before I leave town for a month to go back home, which means that if it IS recurring monthly, I'm going to get it back home too in the middle of my vacation. Rar. :P

But yeah, I'll just take it as it comes. Luckily, the antibiotics seem to be doing their job and I'm feeling much better. :)