Quick Reaction: 8x01 We Need To Talk About Kevin

[hells_half_acre]

First Quick Reaction of the season! WOO!



Okay, I'm going to do my best to remember the sequence of events, but I may just talk about the flashbacks in a chunk somewhere in this, since I can't remember what order they came in or when...

Or cut-text song tonight is Boots or Hearts, seriously, give it a listen - if Supernatural were a Canadian show, there'd be a lot of Tragically Hip songs in it. This one in particular has a couple of apropos songs.

I don't know what song played over the montage, but I liked it.

I also liked Dean's return - the big light, and the campers (Side question: Do people actually camp in those weird white tents, or is that a Supernatural thing because they wanted an easy exit and entrance?)

I especially like Dean appearing almost like a Wendigo...and definitely psychotic-killer-lost-in-the-woods. I thought Jensen played him really well too - kind of animalistic...especially when he took the bag and bolted.

It was also kind of funny that they actually put him in a flannel shirt that was the wrong size (and a style that Dean would never wear).

So, then he digs up the grave and we come to something that I'm actually really not happy about... guys: I hate vampires. Like... I really really hate them. Remember how Dean gave that speech to Sam in Bloodlust back in S2 about how their father had raised them to hate these things and Dean REALLY hates them? Well, that's me, only I'm not willing to make exceptions. So... yeah, I was spoiled for the existence of Benny, and I had a sinking feeling this might happen...but as of right now, I'm really really hoping that Sam or Kevin or Cas or SOMEBODY kills that motherfucker before the end of the season... now it's true, I DO like the Alpha Vamp, but Benny is not the alpha vamp. So, yeah, I'm actually... I think this is the first time Supernatural has actually pissed me off...like, completely. Now, I'm not saying that I hate the show now and I'm never going to watch again, and I'm not saying I'm not going to TRY to give Benny a chance - I'm just saying that this is going to be an uphill battle for all of us.

Also, I really just don't think Benny is good news. I really think he's not a good guy. I really think that he's got something over Dean, and he means to blackmail him or double-cross him or SOMETHING... and that Sam really will have to kill Benny... so I do have a lot of hope. If he's one of the big bads for this year, then that's fine... I just don't want to be told to sympathize with him. It's like Dean became friends with Dick Roman. That is what it's like for me.

Anyway, let's get back to the awesome...

Sam leaves a dog and a girl... gets in the Impala and drives to Rufus's cabin. I'm going to assume that Dean DID manage to get him a message, or else Sam would have freaked out when Dean jumped him.

I LOVE the greeting! With Dean testing Sam and then demanding Sam test him, and Sam's "can I say hello!?" and "I KNOW IT'S YOU, DEAN!" Hahaha...so good.

And the HUG! Oh HUGS! They needed more hugs!

ETA: Sam also has A NEW COAT! It's GREEN like two of his other coats! 

But Cas is gone..."didn't make it" - I'm calling bull. I've got a theory about that. But I'll save my theories to the end of the post. Anyway, I think they should have hugged again after Dean told Sam about Cas...because MOAR HUGS.

Haha... anyway... Sam got out of hunting. Everyone was dead. Hunting killed his entire family. I kind of get his point. I'm pretty sure Sam must have been ABSOLUTELY devastated. You can see it later in the episode too, when Sam's first reaction to the mission to close the gates of hell forever is to say "Kevin's going to die now too."

And Sam abandoned Kevin - because he ditched the phones... but I think Sam just figured it was only a matter of time until Kevin died, and he didn't want to have to see it. Think about it? Everyone Sam has ever tried to save has ended up dead, really.

I'm willing to bet that a lot of people will probably side with Dean though and be mad at Sam for not hunting or looking for Dean while Dean was "dead." But, whatever. Dean spent all of last season being really tired and suicidally depressed... Sam's due for being really tired of hunting and just wanting to get away from the thing that reminds him of everything he lost. Plus, he had no way of knowing that Dean was in purgatory.... though disappearing BODILY is kind of weird.

Anyway... I do like Dean's line about how they always ignore the promise to get a normal life because of their "deep and abiding love for each other."

Where was I?

Oh, Kevin's messages - I liked them. I liked how they started off so formal. "Sam Winchester, this is Kevin Tran blah blah blah, please call me. Kevin Tran." and then got drunk, and then were informal "I assume you're dead."

I also agree with Dean though - Kevin WAS their responsibility. They were the only ones who knew he existed and Sam was the only one to know he was in trouble - and it's not like he could have counted on Kevin saving himself.

So...go find Kevin....

I was also spoiled for the girlfriend ending up being possessed, but I didn't know she was possessed the whole time...and I loved her comment about only being Kevin's girlfriend when he was going to Princeton. :P

I liked Sam and Dean in the coffee shop - how Sam got Dean food, and Dean acted like it was the greatest gift ever....and called his burger a treasure. :) I mean, it's kind of sad when you think about it.... so just don't think about it.

Okay, let's talk about Sam's flashbacks now: I think they were the most sort of - out of place, in the episode. But Sam was very Sam in them. For instance, he immediately takes ALL THE BLAME for hitting the dog. Yes, he admits that the dog just ran out in front of him out of nowhere, but then he's like "I DID THIS." And then he gets all yelly because animal hospitals are supposed to fix animals! And it reminded me of Dean yelling at the hospital guy about Bobby. Man, the Winchesters get REALLY pissed at you if you don't do your designated job. :P Maybe in Sam's case, that's residual guilt for not doing his.

I thought it was kind of weird for Vet-lady to be like "Take the dog!" I mean...how does she know it doesn't belong to anyone? Maybe it looked abandoned? Okay, we'll run with that....but even so, wouldn't she be concerned that Sam wouldn't be a good owner?

When was the motel scene? Anyway, let's jump to the motel scene...  I really liked how they heightened all the city sounds while the camera is on Dean... pointing out the fact that all of a sudden he's in an environment that is no longer familiar, and he's obviously still running on adrenaline required for Purgatory but not for Earth.

I like Dean being like "I KNEW I SMELLED DOG!" and Sam is like "I KNEW YOU'D FREAK OUT ABOUT IT!"

ETA: The line "Two rules, Sam: Don't accept joints from guys named Don and no dogs in the car!" - My grandfather's name was Don... I'm not sure what Dean is trying to say about Dons here, but I'm insanely curious. :P

Oh, I skipped the vending machine... I think that was Dean's "hurt locker" moment with the cereal isle.... and then he goes into a flashback where he meets Benny.

I DID like Benny's line about not being able to trust anyone, and then asking Dean to trust him, and then when Dean points out that that doesn't make sense, Benny is says "see, now you're getting it." But it's cool that there's a gateway for humans...sucks that obviously Benny DID hitch his ride... mainly because it damages my enjoyment of the show so much...ugh, but I will POWER THROUGH IT.

So, let's talk about Dean's flashback... he's madly running around trying to find 'the angel" - which means either he lost Cas completely from the get-go, or he lost him after that...but he WAS trying to find him. Interesting...

Back to the motel...

I like how Sam can see that Dean has PTSD, and I think that's why he ends up talking to Dean a lot during the night...maybe trying to calm him down enough to sleep. We never see if it works.

Oh, and girlfriend is possessed and kills her roommate to use the bowl thingy.

OKAY, off to see Kevin!

Kevin has taken the year off to become a badass! Woo! I love how he offers them a towel. It's so...Kevin Tran.

I also love Kevin's story about what happened after he was taken. I love how he outsmarted Crowley. CROWLEY. Brilliant. Kevin Tran is my new hero. He will replace Dean, since Kevin didn't bring a bloody vampire to the show! (Only joking...a little. I really hate vampires, you guys.)

In Kevin's flashback, when we saw Crowley start talking to him, it was SO FLIRTY. Haha, oh Crowley.... anyway, I absolutely love the fact that Crowley ended up in a goat field while Kevin killed his men and escaped.

So, Kevin read on the godrock that they might be able to close the gates of hell forever! Woo! I guess that's reason enough for Sam to get back in the game...that and the massive guilt-trip, and the fact that someone really has to look after PTSDean.

I liked Sam apologizing to Kevin. When Kevin said "I can't believe this is my life now." And Sam was like "I know it doesn't feel like it now, but it does get better." My friend laughed, and then Kevin said "I'm not gay, you know" and then we both laughed.

Meanwhile, I was thinking all the way back to Ava and how she thought doing crazy things was AWESOME...and I kind of missed her, even if she did go darkside. I think Kevin traded one high stress life for a different high stress life...and it's true academia won't kill you, but it doesn't necessarily make you feel very alive either. You end up living solely in your head...or at least, that was my experience.

I'm getting off topic...

So, Crowley and girlfriend show up! They still have the demon knife...for some reason I thought that had disappeared at some point, but I guess I'm crazy.

I loved the part where Crowley gets the demon in girlfriend to let girlfriend talk, and Kevin tells her "There is a demon inside you and you are going to your safety school" and girlfriend is takes the demon news well and then is like "WHAT?!" Hahaha....

Then, Kevin puts one over on Crowley FOR THE SECOND TIME! (Third time?!) WHATEVER! Brilliant.

That shot of them driving away in slow-mo and Crowley snapping girlfriend's neck was awesome.

My friend said, "She's better off. She was going to her safety school." Ah hahahaha.

Kevin is upset that his girlfriend is dead, and Dean tells him to suck it up - and then he goes off to call his secret Vampire boyfriend...ugh.

It's interesting though - I mean, what would Benny want with Dean now that he's out of purgatory? Why call? Why did Dean give him the number even? "Like we talked about, just take it one day at a time." What did you talk about? Why still be in touch? 

Benny saying that Dean was right and purgatory was "more pure" - is true though. In purgatory everything is instinctual and about survival, there's not a lot of higher level thinking. That's appealing to people like Dean, I think, who only get really really depressed when they higher-level-think. I mean, isn't that why people like D/s and S&M and all that stuff? 

I wonder who's funeral Benny was at.

Was that the end of the show? I guess it was.

Okay, theory: Dean is going to be giving Sam a hard time about abandoning the life and blah blah blah...but then we'll discover that Dean totally ditched Cas in purgatory for some stupid reason, so he's a giant hypocrite. Also, Benny is evil and needs to die. Cas will come back, and/or be rescued...and the whole time in the background/foreground, they'll be trying to get godrocks and close the gate to hell.

I'm not sure what Sam's storyline will be with his flashbacks...I mean, the way I picture it - it'll probably be him crying a lot, then shaking up with Vet-lady and dog...and then having that relationship fall apart... so, it'll be a very weird monster-free storyline for Sam to have, really...not sure what the interest there will be or how it'll impact the present.

But yeah, we're totally not getting the full story from Dean. This is like S4, but instead of Sam keeping secrets about what he did in the summer, it's Dean. I'm perfectly fine with this. I really really liked S4. ... I just don't like vampires.



And there you have it! The good, the bad, the huge gaps of things I've probably forgotten to talk about... seriously, leave me comments with things that you thought were important but that I didn't touch on at all, please! :)

Comments

[cordelia-gray.livejournal.com]

I think the "Road So Far" song was Jethro Tull (which I liked!) and then later there was Styx (which, not so much).

I kind of agree with you about Benny. And I really don't like what they've done with Sam, if it isn't anything other than what it appears to be. Though wasn't there a shadowy figure watching him drive away from Amelia's? So maybe there's more to it. The vet making him take the dog was weird. And - I can see Sam being done with hunting, but not even trying to look for Dean - that's weird to me, and kind of upsetting. I felt like he was "off" this whole episode, I just don't know where they're going with it.

I did like Dean being all twitchy and manic, and having trouble adjusting to life topside, I thought that was well done.

Kevin is 100% awesome.

Overall, it did feel a bit like parts of the beginnings of a bunch of other seasons, all mashed up. There were definite references to the Pilot, and to S4 (with Benny as Ruby) and also to S6 (with Sam being the one with a normal life). I'm far less excited than I was after the S7 premiere, but then I thought S7 started strong and fizzled out, so maybe this one will get better as it goes?

Sorry for the TL:DR! I have a lot of thoughts :)

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

That was DEFINITELY not a TL;DR so no worries and no apologies necessary!

And I really don't like what they've done with Sam, if it isn't anything other than what it appears to be. Though wasn't there a shadowy figure watching him drive away from Amelia's? So maybe there's more to it.

Oh yeah!! I forgot about that. Okay, yeah, there's totally something more going on with him then.... maybe he was forced out of it somehow? Though, that doesn't make sense. I do agree that not looking for Dean when his whole body disappears is a little odd...it'd be a little different if Sam had been left with a corpse.

I'm far less excited than I was after the S7 premiere, but then I thought S7 started strong and fizzled out, so maybe this one will get better as it goes?

My thoughts exactly. ETA: I also agree about it being a mash-up of season openers... and the Benny-Ruby comparison. Out of all the season openers, it reminded me of S4 the most.

[elliemurasaki.livejournal.com]

Dean is [...] a giant hypocrite.

ALREADY ESTABLISHED. Remember last missing year, Dean? You know, when you quit hunting and shacked up with a cute girl because you couldn't face the life you knew if it didn't have him in it, and you did it because he told you to? For bonus points, I think 'my brother told me to' was only part of the motivation for quitting. The rest being, if he (either he) had gone hunting and forgotten at a crucial moment that there was no brother around to watch his back, he'd be dead. And since heaven's done with them, there'd be no takebacks. Neither of them was actively suicidal, and if either had been, both had enough pointy things and things that go bang to get it over with quick. So, since neither wanted to die, it was advisable for both to avoid situations that would probably end in dying.

Crowley snapping girlfriend's neck

GODDAMN FUCKING FRIDGES.

The more I think about this episode the more worked up I get. My initial reaction as posted on my DW, quoted in full: "underwhelmed."

[cordelia-gray.livejournal.com]

Yes, definitely an S4 feeling. Though it did remind me of the start of S1 as well, with Dean finding Sam, who's been out of the life, and Dean tackling Sam, and seeming to have reverted to the more enthusiastic hunter he was back then. Plus the return of the blood-phone, which we haven't seen in a while.

[elliemurasaki.livejournal.com]

Huh. Did not see Benny-Ruby. Should have, because it's very obvious now you mention it, but didn't. What jumped out at me? Benny-Castiel. Complete with thinly disguised sexual tension.

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm fully expecting the Destiel shippers to start hating on Benny the same way they hate on female threats. :P

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

ALREADY ESTABLISHED. Remember last missing year, Dean? You know, when you quit hunting and shacked up with a cute girl because you couldn't face the life you knew if it didn't have him in it, and you did it because he told you to?

In fairness, Dean did READ BOOKS while Sam was gone, in the hopes of finding a way to save him. (He mentioned this in the opener, I believe). But Dean at least knew where Sam WAS. Sam didn't. For all he knew, Dean was in heaven...and it was only a matter of time until Sam joined him. (Assuming they can still get into heaven - seriously, at this point, I don't think any of the afterlife's want them).

GODDAMN FUCKING FRIDGES.

I don't understand that reference.

The more I think about this episode the more worked up I get. My initial reaction as posted on my DW, quoted in full: "underwhelmed."

I don't actually think a season premiere has whelmed me since S4. Though, last year's may have come the closest since then...but then the season that followed was a disappointing.

[raloria.livejournal.com]

Gee. I'm starting to get the impression you don't like vampires. LOL :P

Anyway... I do like Dean's line about how they always ignore the promise to get a normal life because of their "deep and abiding love for each other."

When I read that line in a review of the episode the other day, I thought it was just Sam/Dean shippers getting hopeful, but it was really there! And Jensen totally made it work in a non-slashy way. Bravo to him. After all...it's not like the two of them have ever said the L word to each other before. Being in Purgatory has obviously made Dean much more appreciative, despite his disappointment over Sam not looking for him.

I love that there's a rule about no dogs in the Impala. Hee! Gotta wonder if that was a John rule that Dean carried over.

[elliemurasaki.livejournal.com]

Some comic book or other killed a male character's female love interest and stuffed her body in a refrigerator for him to find and angst over. This is the Trope Namer for the thing where the only significant thing about a female character is that she dies and her male significant other (or occasionally brother or father or son, but usually significant other) angsts and is propelled into his plotline. Other examples: Jessica Moore, Mary Winchester, Karen Singer.

[elliemurasaki.livejournal.com]

I bet it was. And I bet it's because this is not Sam's first stray dog. I mean, we knew that, but I bet wee!Sam tried to adopt every stray dog he ever met and John wasn't having any of it.

[borgmama1of5.livejournal.com]

Back-from-Purgatory-Dean is my new favorite flavor :)

I am banking everything on the writers messing with us about Sam not looking for Dean...if Sam had even just said "I thought you were in heaven maybe" I could have bought his retirement...but as is, it makes Sam look like he really doesn't love Dean as much as Dean loves him, and that is wrong...But I think something is up from the way Sam just left his lady and his dog in the middle of the night without saying goodbye (and I'd forgotten about someone watching him!) Also, I thought Dean said he wasn't able to contact Sam. So what made Sam randomly drive to Rufus' cabin in the middle of his retirement? I understand shy Dean would have gone there, but awfully coincidental that Sam just decided to show up. And in Winchester world, there are no coincidences...

The writers sure set up enough mysteries to last for a while!

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Hmmm, I think Dean's line was "half your phones don't work" or something like that, which to me implied that he got in touch with Sam on a phone that DID work. But I might be wrong about that...

I definitely thought it was a bit odd that Sam said that he didn't have the girl anymore, yet he was leaving her house with her in bed... so, yeah, kind of strange.

Something fishy is definitely going on either way you slice it!

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Jensen is very good, I find, at delivering dialogue in exactly the right way. ;)

I think the only other time they say the L word is in The End, when Dean tells Sam that whatever they have between them "love, family, whatever it is..." or something along those lines - but love is in there. But yeah...

Dean definitely seems to be much more straight forward and no nonsense then he was before purgatory!

(And yeah, I REALLY hate vampires. :P)

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Haha, yes, I could totally see that. New headcanon. ;)

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Oooo... I did not know that had a name.

But yes, goddamn fridges indeed. You may have noticed, I couldn't even remember her name and had to call her by her relationship to male character :P

Though, Supernatural is a tragic tale about men without women.

[raloria.livejournal.com]

True, we saw the dog he had when he ran off in Tucson. But I'm also wondering if I'm being influenced by fanfic where the boys picked up stray dogs when they were young. Heh.

[raloria.livejournal.com]

This isn't the first time I've read a line before watching the episode and Jensen's turned his magic on it made it totally work when I thought for sure it wouldn't. :)

True, the L word was there then, but this time it was quite a declaration! I can't see pre-Purgatory Dean saying anything like that. That sort of expression of love towards his brother? Totally taboo and uncool for earlier Dean. :P

I know. I really like this Dean! Not like I didn't like the other versions, but you know what I mean. *g*

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

The only thing I don't like about this Dean is that he is FULL OF SECRETS! haha, but hey, that's what makes for good Show.

Jensen's a wizard with a line. He never lets me down.

And yeah, as far as saying "I love you" this is as close as they've ever come...which IS pretty damn close for two brothers.

[liliaeth]

I have to admit, I love Cas, but I felt Dean had more UST with Benny in this one ep, than he has with Cas in all the past three seasons put together.

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'd agree with that too.

Though, personally, given my hatred of vampires - I'm still banking on someone eventually killing Benny for me. Otherwise, I'm writing letters. No offense to the dude who plays him of course - obviously he has great chemistry with Jensen.

[liliaeth]

Well I kinda do like vampires. Long time Spike fan*eg*

But I still think he'll probably end up killed. (pretty much all supporting chars end up dead sooner or later) The only thing I'm unsure of is if it'll be Dean or Sam that ends up killing him. And how much angst they'll wring out of it.

Doesn't mean I can't enjoy the ship while it lasts*g*

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Haha, well, then enjoy away! It looks like there will be plenty of chemistry to work off of!

I'm basically racist against vampires. It's a really good thing they aren't real people, or else I'd feel like a horrible person.

That being said, I LOVE the alpha!vamp for some reason. I don't know if it's Rick Worthy's performance or just how they use him...but I've loved him so far despite the fact that he's a vampire. So, maybe there's hope for me yet.

[fannishliss.livejournal.com]

Just to make you happy I'm gonna focus on the vampire.

First off, I'm really pretty certain you're not supposed to like him! He has USE DEAN tattooed on his forehead.


Also, I really just don't think Benny is good news. I really think he's not a good guy. I really think that he's got something over Dean, and he means to blackmail him or double-cross him or SOMETHING... and that Sam really will have to kill Benny... so I do have a lot of hope. If he's one of the big bads for this year, then that's fine... I just don't want to be told to sympathize with him.

To me, I think Benny is very clearly bad. I think the creepiest moment of the whole episode is when Dean HUGS A VAMPIRE. offering his neck to the guy. WOW. In a certain way, I think what they're doing there is brilliant, because the show has always been about the attempt to define what a monster really is. In purgatory, by definition, everyone is a monster. So Dean had to fall back on the old line, the enemy of my enemy (360 combat) is my friend. But of course that line is really a question, not a statement, and the answer is NO HE ISN'T.

what would Benny want with Dean now that he's out of purgatory? Why call? Why did Dean give him the number even? "Like we talked about, just take it one day at a time." What did you talk about? Why still be in touch? ...I wonder who's funeral Benny was at.

1. Benny was probably initially killed by Hunters. I assume he wants to keep Dean as a friendly informant in case he begins to hear about Hunters coming after vampires.
2. Benny doesn't want to let Dean get to comfortable without him?
3. The one day at a time speech means that Dean thinks Benny is on the wagon. My assumption is that in Purgatory they talked about being monsters and wanting to change. Of course Dean is now way more of an automatic killing machine than he's ever been, and Benny was certainly playing him the whole time. Dean and Benny are supposed to be each other's support group for sobriety now that they are out.
4. Whose funeral? Benny's victim. There's no one else it could possibly be. Benny is already munching down on humans and Dean can't see it.

I love Benny's name, a phonetic play on the word for "good" -- when he's clearly not good at all!!

For me there were two emotional centers to the episode -- Dean's experience of Purgatory and how it changed him so much that he made friends with a vampire, and two, Sam's helplessness. I think we're going to learn more about the helplessness aspect, so I'm going to let that lie. I have nothing but sympathy for Sam, very deep sympathy.

There's one more aspect to the nastiness of the vampire that you don't mention. How was he riding inside Dean's arm? Clearly we don't know exactly how yet. The thing we see is that Benny is INSIDE Dean. Second creepiest moment of the ep. And it gets more disturbing the more you think about it. How did he get IN THERE. urgh!!! more than a bit Not Good, no matter how you look at it.

I fear for Cas. I want to believe that Dean just couldn't find him. It's being played much worse than that though. o_O I'm very anxious to learn more about Cas and his fate.

I have a kind of underwhelmed response to Kevin. He's doing pretty well for himself, but I keep waiting for the other foot to fall. Idk. Wouldn't it be awesome though to imagine Kevin meeting Chuck? I should totally write that up this morning. :)

[fannishliss.livejournal.com]

I have a pretty clear scenario regarding what happened to Sam in terms of his helplessness. I don't think Sam gave up... I just think he was completely out of options.


It is too bad he ditched his phones, tho to be fair no one expects a phone call from hell (which is where I would have thought Crowley would take Kevin).

[mymuseandi.livejournal.com]

It's not that I don't like vampires (I hate the sparkly ones, am ambivalent on the non-sparkly :p), it's that I don't like Benny who clearly has his own agenda. It's so obvious, and please tell me that Dean is not blind to that. I knew there's a character called Benny, I just didn't know what or who he is, so him being a vamp is a surprise to me.

I thought it was kind of weird for Vet-lady to be like "Take the dog!" I mean...how does she know it doesn't belong to anyone?

EXACTLY. When I was writing my review I kept on getting more annoyed the more I thought about it. I mean, Sam could be a murderer or an evil person for all she knows, and she insisted on him taking the dog? If Sam isn't Sam, he might just abandoned the dog somewhere else.

Kevin is a BAMF. And clearly very self-sufficient enough to keep himself alive for a year without any help.

Benny saying that Dean was right and purgatory was "more pure" - is true though. In purgatory everything is instinctual and about survival, there's not a lot of higher level thinking.

That's rather deep, although when Dean and Benny keep on describing Purgatory as pure, it just gives me the chills.

I don't think Sam did the wrong thing, and he was trying to explain his side of it to Dean, who is obviously not listening, and I think everyone should just cut him some slack. Between him and Dean, Sam has a healthier attitude towards just accepting your dues and thinking that you do deserve happiness. Dean has a rather self-destructive view of himself, and he can't see that he deserves happiness, and I think that lashing out at Sam is a bit like he's feeling sorry for himself as well.

Let's wait for the next episode!