I don't know how I'd explain it, but I have interesting ideas rattling around about myself. I won't say I was lacking in anything, honestly. People cared about me, but they didn't always know how to bridge the gap and let me know in a way I understood(or in a way I believed, since I've always dealt with being practically a compulsive liar, and I thought everyone else was one too), so I often felt isolated even amongst family. I developed (mentally, emotionally, and physically) quickly and early, so I was going through the emo teen stage when I was just eight or nine(I had terrible depression as a pre-teen), and nobody knew what to do with me. I didn't talk to people because I didn't know how to explain myself and I was scared of what people would say(since I had no idea of what was normal OR abnormal). And add it to the lack of external social stimulation...well, it all just made me who I am. And ironically enough, as much as I like to examine and plot and theorize about things, I wouldn't change it. It made me who I am, and while looking back, some things in my life were bad and unfortunate, I can't say I'd change them, because I am who I am...and for once, I like who I am.
I checked out his site; very cool! He sounds awesome.
Re: Part 1
Date: 2012-06-23 01:40 am (UTC)I checked out his site; very cool! He sounds awesome.