Real life is a bitch

[hells_half_acre]

Well, I'm glad I got one story from the list up. I started another, but it's longer and a bit more detailed, so it's going to be a while. I'm thinking in the meantime that I might just post my HP crossover to a com, just for kicks.

Meanwhile, I'm trying to figure out what the heck to do with my life. I've come across the first nay-sayer to the Vancouver plan. My Dad's vote is that it'd be a completely pointless move and a waste of money, and I wouldn't enjoy living with my sister. Now, mostly all of you (or all of you) don't know me...but suffice it to say that my Dad and I aren't exactly close, so his opinion actually means nothing...he has no idea who I am, who my sister is, or how well we get along. Seriously, she really is the Sammy to my Dean...yeah, we annoy each other sometimes, but she's also one of my closest friends, (not to mention she has crazy demon-powers! Hahahaha....;)

Dad does have a point on the money thing though, it'd be a lot cheaper for me to stay here. But money doesn't buy (or rent) happiness.

Another option to consider is that I actually did apply to do a PhD (though I haven't heard back about it yet), just to see how much money they would offer...I'm really not sure whether or not I want to go back to school. I do know, however, that I need to make a change in life - so, either I move to Vancouver and continue with the career I have, or switch careers, or do a PhD, or learn something practical and then do that...

To top it off, my Mum's splitting up with her live-in boyfriend, which means selling this house...which means moving...and I don't even think she can afford that, so maybe it means helping Mum move to a box in an alley, who knows. So, yeah, do I want to leave Mum alone to deal with that on her own while I take off to Vancouver?

Sigh...decisions decisions....

Comments

[maiafire.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear that things are crappy at the moment. *hugs*

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the *hugs*. Eventually I will figure all this stuff out (I hope)!

[maiafire.livejournal.com]

I hope so too. :-)

[mizzykitty.livejournal.com]

Hmm. Those are some serious decision to make. I don't know whether moving to Vancouver would be good or not. I will say that I've pretty much been in that exact situation, 4 years ago. I knew I had to either change careers, move, go back to school, something. I ended up choosing all three. I moved to England and went back to school for something completely different than what I was doing. The school thing didn't work out because I hated it. I quit and spent a year feeling adrift in a sea of confusion and self doubt. Eventually I realized that I actually missed my old career, pharmaceutics and chemistry. So I decided to go back to that career, with the difference that I'd get a phd, which would help me advance so that I wouldn't feel as stuck in a dead end job as I was before. Which was the right choice, because I love it now.

So uh...I say, don't be afraid to make bold decisions. Even if they end up being not the right choice, you will at the very least learn from them, and they will not have been in vain. Even though I "wasted" a year and a half of time from dropping out of that course and spending so much time making up my mind, I would never say I regretted the mistakes I made, because they HAD to be made to get me to where I am today.

[hells-half-acre.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the advice. And yeah, that's basically where I am now, I don't know what I should do, but I know that SOMETHING has to be done. So, whether it's staying here and doing a PhD or it's moving to Vancouver, something in my life is going to be changing. Maybe it will be a bad decision, maybe it won't, but I've basically "wasted" the past two years spending too much time making up my mind, and I don't really want to do that anymore.

Part of me is thinking that maybe I should go into photography actually...that would be quite the career change. So many possibilities! I was talking to Mum about it tonight and we were laughing at how ridiculous it feels to complain about it: "Woe is me, I can do anything!" :P

[mizzykitty.livejournal.com]

Yes, wasting time is the suck. Indecision is depressing. Act boldly. Do something crazy in order to save your sanity!

Haha. At least you can laugh about it.