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[hells_half_acre]

So, I was going to do another rewatch tonight, but instead I spent the night getting pissed off at my contracting company and trying to decide what I'm going to do about the future.

Right now, I really want to quit this job at the end of March 2013 (when my current contract is finished.) The only problem with that is that last time I tried to get a different job, I was unsuccessful... and I can't afford to be unemployed again...especially not in Vancouver.

I've been offered a job in China, but I'm not going to take it for financial reasons and because I don't want to live in China. (You can't access LJ from there.) 

There's a possibility my oldest sister could get me a job in Toronto - which would mean moving back east.

I don't know. I can't decide where I want to be or what I want to do. 

I have tickets to VanCon2013 and the first draft of a novel that I hate more with each passing day.... for whatever those are worth.

Anyway...yeah, I'll resume rewatches tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be in a better mood.

ETA: I meant to flock this, but then I forgot, and now I might as well just leave it.

Comments

[thursdaysisters.livejournal.com]

Could you telecommute the China job?

[metallidean-grl.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel and I totally empathize. My last full-time job I hated it so much, it was painful. I was miserable, I hated going to work, I literally hated my days. I started looking for something else but just couldn't find anything. And then I was layed off, so that solved my desire to leave the company. Since then I had some temp jobs and now I work part-time somewhere that I enjoy, but I don't get enough hours, but it's all I have been able to find, especially with the economy the way that it is and the job market being so sucky.

Anyway, I don't know if you have gotten to that point of literally dreading going to work, but if you have, that is no way to live. To me, it is just not worth it to be so miserable at work that you have a sense of dread in your stomach every morning. And literally get sick every Sunday night. I hope you are able to figure out what you want/need/should do. You gotta do what is right for you.

[fourtenpm.livejournal.com]

I think u get lj in China, it's all the other sites such as YouTube, twitter, Facebook, etc that you have to be gymnastics to get access to.

[franztastisch]

I can't decide where I want to be or what I want to do.

Welcome to my life. :/

So what is it that means you don't want to move back to Toronto? Or is this just a complete "I'm not sure" deal? And what is the Toronto job?

[dairygirl.livejournal.com]

It's always tough to be in a position where you just don't know which way to go. And I'm sorry your novel is being stubborn. Hopefully, a good night's sleep will help and maybe some time spent journaling may help? I'm pulling for you!

[khek.livejournal.com]

(((Hugs)))

I wish I could help more than that. However, I hope that things get better, or that an obvious solution presents itself soon.

[nanloo.livejournal.com]

Poor you. Here are somc chocolates and a big hug.

Sometimes we get so wrapped up in our little Supernatural bubble,that we forget about RL until it shows its ugly head.

Real sorry that your book has hit a snag.
China? Hmm, kind of like the food, on occasion it is ok, but as a regular diet, not too good.

Perk to the job in Toronto: get to see your sister and her family more. I don't know if that would be a good thing or not, but it is something to consider.

It is not as if you have to make a decision right now. So, take a deep breath and go do something that would make you happy. Go get some ice cream. :))

[borgmama1of5.livejournal.com]

Firstly, hugs :)

Secondly, don't write off (ha, pun) your novel! I apologize for not getting back to you faster, but there are definitely good things in it and I want to give it the attention it deserves when I review it.

Third, the job situation is incredibly tough...but I've seen enough of you to know you think 'outside the box'...and I've lived enough to know that sometimes a person stumbles onto what they should be doing while looking for something else. Don't get trapped, even if money is a scary thing.

I still think Supernatural needs you as official documentor :)

[traveling-storm.livejournal.com]

I don't want to live in China. (You can't access LJ from there.)

Not that it makes a difference, but um, yes you can. I'm in Shanghai.