hells_half_acre: (Crying Dean)
2018-07-26 07:56 am

One Scene Each Season: S12 - Dean confronts Mary


Just a quick heads-up: Next week's clip will probably be posted on either Monday or Wednesday, depending on life, not Tuesday.

And now, we get to S12...

S12 - Dean confronts Mary in 12x22


Why I chose this scene:

Now, first off, I was really torn in this season between this scene, Sam taking charge and becoming a leader, and the family hug at the end of this episode when Mary apologizes to Sam too... but in the end, this one won out, because it was the one that the gravity of which was all encapsulated in the scene.

Second caveat, is that I absolutely hate the camera technique used in this clip, when both the person in the foreground and the person in the background are in focus. (You can see what I mean by just looking at the thumbnail for the video above). BUT, that's a personal taste thing, obviously, so I'll ignore it. I think if it was universally despised, Supernatural would stop using it so often.

Okay, now let's talk about the real reasons I chose this scene. I mean, thirdly, I suppose, it kind of drops an anvil where other seasons may have layered it's contents beautifully across the entire arc of the year... but, thems not the way SPN is written anymore, so I will take my anvils and be grateful. (And man, I used to complain about anvils in the early season too, I knew nothing).

Seriously though, I need to stop complaining, because this IS a beautiful scene and it's done really well by Jensen. I think what I like about it is how it does capture that emotion of hating the people you love, and how you don't WANT to. And I love the way that Jensen plays it as though Dean is only coming to this realization about his feelings towards his mother NOW, as he gets angry at her for hiding in this dream of an idyllic life. He realizes that it's not just NOW that she's hiding in this dream, but that she had been ever since 1973... which in turn, is why she never warned John about the deal, why she 'lied' to Dean as a kid. (I put 'lied' because honestly, what was she supposed to tell a 4 year-old? "Actually, Dean, in about two weeks, a demon is going to come and collect on a deal, and I have no idea what I've promised away - could be me, could be you, could be your brother... all I know is that it's probably going to visit untold horrors upon this family.")

It was easier for Mary to put the looming deal to the back of her mind, and enjoy the life she had bargained with a demon in order to get. But, from Dean's perspective, she traded their entire futures for just 10, only slightly idyllic, years as a housewife.

But, more importantly than that, even though lays out what happened to SAM because of it, he also acknowledges - possibly for the first time since S3 - what happened to HIM because of it. That he became father/mother/brother at the age of 5. That of COURSE he would (as he sees it) FAIL at that job. (In my opinion, of course, he didn't fail - if we measure parenting by how a person turned out, then Sam is absolutely wonderful and that's because of Dean and John, but mostly Dean.... of course, I know people with shitty parents who are also good people, so that's probably an inaccurate measure. Still, all things considered, I think Dean did alright considering he was only 4 years older than his "kid").

This is Dean confronting the "perfect" image that he had of his mom, and examining it for the denial that it is... which is just as much his fault as Mary's. We often turn the dead into saints, when it's not warranted. And probably, this sainthood has been questioned in Dean's mind ever since S4, when he found out that Mary wasn't some innocent civilian. But, that all being said, Dean himself has made deals, and I like the fact that he recognizes that he can't throw stones... but the fact that Mary is just as complicit as John in Dean's horrible childhood is still something that needs to be addressed.

And I love the way he finishes off, by asking Mary to look at him. To SEE him. Probably the least blatant part of the scene, this is Dean asking Mary to confront what she did, so THAT he can forgive her. You can't forgive someone who won't even acknowledge that they did something. And yes, Mary's previously acknowledged that she did something TO SAM, but she never mentioned Dean in that before... and I think this is Dean saying that she had to see what she did to him too. That she had to CONFRONT REALITY of what/who her kids became, rather than living in denial or a dream or trying to escape it... and simultaneously, it's Dean doing the same for Mary, it sounds harsh when he says it, but his rant is about him acknowledging that she ISN'T the perfect mom, that he doesn't expect her to be, that he understand she's a flawed and complicated individual who is imperfect and has made some huge mistakes in her life and will more than likely do so again. It's him telling her that he's taking that pressure to live up to his expectations away - that she doesn't have to be this beloved figure in their lives, hates her just as much as he loves her. In return, she has to do the same for him... she has to see him as something other than a 4 year-old that she's only going to let down, but also acknowledge that she already HAS let him down, and that he's still standing there.

Anyway, it's a good scene. 

hells_half_acre: (Darkness Defines)
2018-02-18 01:56 pm

Rewrite: Season 12

Do you ever wonder what a Season 12 might look like if the BMoL made (more) sense and Crowley wasn't suddenly an idiot?

Well, so did I, so I rewrote it.


18 out of 23 episodes changed, to varying degrees, for your consideration... )

I hope you enjoyed my version of Season 12 :)

I may do this again for Season 13...

hells_half_acre: (Confused!Dean)
2018-02-01 08:42 pm

Quick Reaction: 13x12 Various and Sundry Villains


Tonight i haven't been drinking, but hopefully this will still be entertaining for you all...but I still took crappy notes, so everything is still recapped only to the best of my memory and all quotes are paraphrased, probably.

Oh, as I'm sure you know, there was a moment in tonight's episode that filled me with so much joy... so much... however too brief joy.

But, let us start at the beginning...

Come on! You're like 8 feet tall! )

Let me know your thoughts!

hells_half_acre: (Darkness Defines)
2018-01-25 11:06 pm

Quick Reaction: 13x11 Breakdown

Oh man... what is this, the Benders?

I'm getting ahead of myself! Disclaimer: Drinking (I actually cut myself off at one point, because I was drinking TOO MUCH), bad notes, quotes aren't meant to be correct, etc...


...no pretension song lyrics, because I've gotten out of the habit of charging my iPod since it started to break on me back in Dec.


As usual, let me know your thoughts... and yeah, if people can give me Doug's exact line about the family reunion and when it was, I'd much appreciate it!

hells_half_acre: (Churchyards Yawn)
2018-01-18 09:57 pm

Quick Reaction: 13x10 Wayward Sisters

Woot! We're back! And we're back with a backdoor pilot!!

Standard disclaimer: I have watched the episode once, while taking crappy notes, and drinking copious amounts of wine. My memory will not be exact and quotes (if I use any) will be heavily interpreted and paraphrased. Don't correct me unless it's crucial to character or plot or I ask you to.

Let's get TO IT...

Welcome to the family )

As usual, let me know what you thought in comments. And remember, I like liking things, so state negatives first, but always finish with positives. :)

hells_half_acre: (...shit)
2017-05-18 11:26 pm

Quick Reaction: Who We Are (12x22) and All Along the Watchtower (12x23)

 Oh man, this is going to be a late night...

So, copious drinking, not one but TWO episodes to keep in my head long enough to write up, after only watching them once - Do usual rules apply? YUP! 1. Don't correct me unless I ask you to, or it's plot/character crucial. 2. Keep it positive - if you want to leave a comment with everything you hated, then you have to counter every negative with one positive. Thems the rules.

Okay... let's get to it, I'mma break this post into two different cuts, and hopefully we can do this efficiently. First off, we have 12x22...

Why don't you quiet down? )

Which leads us into 12x23....

Have a little faith in me... )

And that's our season....

I'll be posting the timeline next week at some point. I've got a few things I've gotta verify from some episodes that I didn't watch close enough..

I guess I'll see you again for quick reactions in the fall!

I'll be posting this summer too, but it'll just be random junk, and maybe some fic.

Let me know what you thought - and please remember the BALANCE rule... gotta put the positive with any negative.

hells_half_acre: (Worried!Sam)
2017-05-11 10:51 pm

Quick Reaction: 12x21 There's Something About Mary

Alright, so, let's just be honest right out of the gate:

I hated this episode.

But, I have a rule around here, and it's that you HAVE to find the positive in a thing - and the rules apply to me too. So, yeah... yeah... let's see what I can do here.

Live through this and you won't look back... )

So, yeah... uh, that's angry me. I'm sorry if I did a really bad job of following my own rule. Nevertheless, please try to follow the rule when you comment - though, misery loves company, so feel free to complain too. 

hells_half_acre: (Crying Dean)
2017-05-05 12:04 am

Quick Reaction: 12x20 Twigs, Twine, Tasha Banes

 No worries, I didn't need my heart.

Tonight I went out to see a documentary called The Road Forward, which is about the history of the Indigenous Rights movement in British Columbia. It was really interesting, but already had me quite emotional - because, you know - First Nations have been and are treated horribly in my country.

Anyway, I downloaded the episode when I got home.... which is why this write up is so late.

So, you don't get drunk!me but you do get emotionally wrung-out and tired!me... hopefully I can still be entertaining.

Usual rules apply - No quotes are actual quotes and I'm not going to remember everything exactly (nor retell it exactly). It'll be the general idea - don't correct me unless I ask or it's super duper important to the plot or the understanding of a character.


No songs only sadness... )

So, next week looks like even more shit hitteth the fan.

As per usual, let me know what you thought in comments, either on LJ or DW. :)

hells_half_acre: (Scary!Dean)
2017-04-27 11:12 pm

Quick Reaction: 12x19 The Future


Alright, back from our little one-week hiatus. You all know the rules by now, so let's dive right into it...

Life is better now that I'm with you... )

As per usual, let me know what you thought in comments! :)

hells_half_acre: (Sam Winchester Top Chef)
2017-04-13 10:42 pm

Quick Reaction: 12x18 The Memory Remains


So, usual rules apply - let's just get right to it.

Oh, first - quick note: those of you who like my rewatches - I won't be doing one this weekend, because my mother is visiting. So, week off!

Now back to S12...

Hunting people, killing them - the family business! )

Anyway, good MOTW episode.

Next week: Back to Plot!

As usual, let me know what you thought in comments!!!! This is also mirrored on DW, if you'd prefer to take the conversation there. 

hells_half_acre: (Peace Out Bitches)
2017-04-06 11:48 pm

Quick Reaction: 12x17 The British Invasion


We're finally back to our regularly scheduled Supernatural nights - with me going to my friend's place and drinking copious amounts of wine. Tonight was a very nice Pinot Noir, which made me regret my usual "white wine only" rule... which I instituted one year mainly because I couldn't afford to have my teeth cleaned at the dentist, rather than out of any sort of hatred for red wine (though they do often give me headaches).

ANYWAY... I'm already rambling, so this should be a fun write up - let's get started. Usual rules apply: I've watched the episode once, while intoxicated and I'm still intoxicated - so only correct me if I ask you to or I've gotten something so horrendously wrong that it's a matter of life or death.

Also, I don't have spell check, so just forgive spelling - at this point, I'm 35, and I'm not going to get any better at it.


Don't dive shallow in deep dark water... )

As per usual, let me know what you think in comments! And remember, like me, if you hate something, also be sure to mention something you love (LIKE EILEEN)... and if you hate Eileen...this is not the comment section you're looking for.

ALSO, SOMEONE MAKE ME AN EILEEN ICON OR SOMETHING? Do people even make icons anymore? I need some SPN ladies icons - Sheriff's Donna and Jody, or Eileen, or Claire, or just PEOPLE. Mind you, if I move my shit to DW, maybe I don't have the icon choices over there for all this stuff. Blah, other topics for other days.
hells_half_acre: (Braedan)
2017-03-30 11:36 pm

Quick Reaction: 12x16 Ladies Drink Free


My mum is in town, so once again, no drinking (well, one glass of wine at dinner doesn't count). But don't worry, I still took bad notes! As per usual, please forgive spelling mistakes (I have no spellcheck) and also don't correct me unless I ask you to (or it's really important to character or plot) - I've only watched the episode once, so I'm not going to remember things exactly.

Okay, usual spiel over - let's get to it...

Awkward Silence for Everyone! )

As per usual, let me know what you thought in comments!!!!
hells_half_acre: (DarkSam)
2017-03-10 12:21 am

Quick Reaction: 12x15 Somewhere Between Heaven and Hell


Little late tonight, because I had a writer's group until 9:30, but hey, at least I'm not 4 days late like last week!

Since today was yet another instance of me watching the show alone at home, there was no drinking. However, I still took horrible notes, so usual rules apply.

Let's do this...

It can always get weirder )

As always, let me know what you thought (and apologies for the lack of spellcheck! And if you're going to tell me that dude's name, make sure that the three comments before you haven't already)
hells_half_acre: (Sam's a badass)
2017-03-06 10:16 pm

Quick Reaction: 12x14 The Raid

Hello! I'm only 4 days late!

Once again, no drinking (my SPN drinking tradition has really been thrown for a loop by my schedule this year!), but I still took poor notes on stationary that I stole from the hotel! So, yay!

Also, I know that everyone else has had the time to rewatch this episode if they pleased, and discuss it with their friends, but I have honestly not done any of that - I avoided discussion, because I hadn't seen it yet, and I JUST watched it, so I've only seen it once. So, as per usual, I might remember things slightly wrong and no quotes are meant to be accurate - and also I don't know what's already been said by other people or whatever, so I might be late to the game with a lot of my thoughts, but what else is new.

Let's get to it...

Clever Clever Boy )

This Thursday I have a thing, but I'll try to make it home at a somewhat reasonable time and still watch the episode and post my quick reaction before Friday (or extremely early on Friday).

As per usual, let me know what you thought in comments.... and remember that my spellcheck doesn't work.
hells_half_acre: (Crowley)
2017-02-23 11:51 pm

Quick Reaction: 12x13 Family Feud

Book Club tonight! So doing this a little later than usual - hopefully it doesn't take me too long, 'cause I gotta work tomorrow!

Review of the The Fifth Season: Really good book for strong characters, diversity, great female protags, and realistic relationships - but too many dead kids, and since it's only book one of The Broken Earth Series, it doesn't resolve and that's frustrating if you don't have time to read more than the one book.

Anyway, once again you get sober Alix, because I had to drive to book club, so no booze for me! But you still get rushed poor notes, so hopefully this will still be entertaining ...

Don't play with me... )

As per usual, let me know what you thought in comments - remember the negative/positive rule - and as always, forgive my spelling.
hells_half_acre: (...shit)
2017-02-16 11:19 pm

Quick Reaction: 12x12 Stuck In the Middle (With You)

New episode!

Once again watching from home, due to having a cold and not wanting to infect my friends. So, no drinks, but still poorly kept notes.

Let's get started....

You're my family. I love you. I love all of you." )

As per usual, let me know what you thought in comments!!
hells_half_acre: (OfficeDean)
2017-02-09 11:05 pm

Quick Reaction: 12x11 Regarding Dean


Change of plans this week - the weather in Vancouver has been slightly awful and the streets are very slushy, and I do not own waterproof shoes - so the decision was made to NOT go to my friends house. Instead I stayed home where it was warm and dry... but that means no drinking. Don't worry though! I still took horrible notes. :P

Stop being cute! Both of you! )

As usual, please forgive spelling mistakes, and also let me know what you thought in comments!!!
hells_half_acre: (...shit)
2017-02-02 11:35 pm

Quick Reaction: 12x10 Lily Sunder Has Some Regrets


So, tonight was a little different, because I went out to dinner and drank, but then I watched the show at home on my laptop... but don't worry! I still took very poor notes! So, as usual, all quotes are paraphrased and I'm not going to remember things exactly.


To the episode... )

Let me know what you thought in comments!!!
hells_half_acre: (Scary!Dean)
2017-01-27 12:33 am

Quick Reaction: 12x09 First Blood


We're back!

Let's just launch right into it, because it's already after 11 and I have work in the morning. As per usual, I've had wine, taken only extremely rough notes, and therefore all quotes are approximate.

Every time the sun comes up I'm in trouble... )

Anyway, tell me what you thought in comments!! Also, forgive spelling mistakes, I do not have a spellchecker.
hells_half_acre: (...shit)
2016-12-09 12:15 am

Quick Reaction: 12x08 LOTUS


Alright, let's just get down to it. You all know the rules by now...

And the rule of thumb don't apply anymore, 'cause the house is burning... )

As usual, let me know what you thought in comments.