Sorry to hear your neighbors are inconsiderate cockroaches. I wish it wasn't taking a month to evict her because I know how distracting and stressful it can be when you cannot sleep because the upstairs neighbor cannot shut up (cease and desist in this case). Indulge fanfiction as much as you need to. I use that therapy often, more than I should at work but I do it anyway. Hopefully, your spirits will improve soon.